watch it burn, let it die, cause we are finally free, tonight

I just don't have any idea, what to do anymore. I've run out of ideas, how to keep everything together or even how to be happy. Really, I don't want anything to end or smth but that's all I can take for now. Maybe I'm the problem, but things don't happen only thanks to one person. There's always two sides and I think that one of them isn't the same anymore.These things and problems will be back soon & then again and again.. I want to say so many things, so many things have to be done but he won't listen me and the saddest part is, that I have to admit that it won't last forever. I don't sparkle anymore, happiness is somewhere far away and I just sit here, without words. Actually, I have so many words but I've noticed that they don't work. So.. I'm out of everything. I really just want to go somewhere and be there as long as I can, because  things here aren't the way they're supposed to be.