I guess after awhile of ignoring, we get tired of being angry and instead, we feel sad. We get reminded once in awhile why we're not talking in the first place, but there comes a point where there's no more anger.. just disappointment.

.. So true. It's funny, that I don't even have words for that. Really, I think that I have never felt so much different feelings at the same time. I'm still in a shock but that's ok. The thing is, I hate when people promise/say something and then they don't put them into practice. It's forgiveable when you do it once or twice, but when it happens almost every week, then I have really big doubts about that person & he's feelings, far from my trust. I am just so disappointed in everything right now, that I don't know, what to do. Like one person said: " You have to do the right decision. And you have to decide, what you feel, not what you want. Just, please, be sure that this decision is right and you have no doubts about it later." I really should listen people more. Decision is done and I'm not sure, if it was the right thing to do. And now I'm trapped, cause I can't change it and hurt somebody more and more. It's just.. I don't know. No matter what I do, it still feels wrong.