G: I don't need your credit cards, and I don't need your money, but if our relationship is gonna work, I need your respect. Because if you don't, I'm gonna put on my new shoes and walk out the door. I'm just pointing something out. I'm a pretty girl, and pretty girls are never lonely.

Sest et osad inimesed on siiralt head, mul pole sõnu :')


A : "no ta ei saa äkki aru, kui vedanud tal on."

Each day you're not here

Feels like a thousand years

Need a magician to make time disappear

Once you're near I won't let goYou're what I need and all I know

30 days to us

30 days to love

Each second I'm here thinking what I wanna do

What I wanna do when I get to you

One month, four weeks, too many hours

Sunrise sun fall

I'm growing tired

How it feels on day one

It doesn't get better till I have your love here forever

There's nothing I want more than you right now

There's nothing you could say, nothing you could do, there's no other way, when it comes to the truth.

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Just wondering.. kuhu mu igapäevane naeratus ja hea tuju kadunud on ? Nii kuradi halb on nii.

Naudin neid päevi, kui mul on siiralt pohhui lihtsalt. Hämmastav, milleks ma siis võimeline olen.. Oijaaa !

But here's the truth about the truth: It hurts. So we lie.

Olenemata sellest, et kõik on ilmselt parimast parim, närib mind mu sisetunne iga päev aina rohkem ja rohkem. Ja tänu minevikule ning kõigele muule tean, et see tunne ei ole mulle varem valetanud. Nii kuradi imelik on kõik, pole õrna aimugi, mida ma ette peaks võtma. Ja kas üldse peakski ? Lihtsalt, vahel soovin, et kõik oleks kergemast kergem, et ei oleks vaja karta ning kõiki oleks võimalik usaldada. Oleks siis asi ainult mõtlemises kinni aga kui pärast päeva on sisemiselt rahutu tunne ja närvis oleks, rääkimata sellest halvast aimdusest, siis ju peab midagi valesti olema.. Kõik on nii õrn ja kõik on nii kahtlema panev, mis toimub ?

There comes a moment when it's more than just a game, and you either take that step forward or turn around and walk away. I could quit but here's the thing, I love the playing field.

Lihtsalt, mida vittu mees. Ma ausalt ei tea, kas keegi on tundnud seda tunnet, kui keegi sulle tähtis inimene teeb või ütleb midagi sellist, mis teeb haiget nii, et see lööb sul terve mõtte tühjaks ja sa lihtsalt muutud tuimaks. See tunne, kui terve su kõht tõmbub krampi ning ainus asi, mis seda vähegi suudab leevendada, on värske õhk. See tuimus ja imelikult piinav olek.. Mina igatahes sain seda täna üle pika aja tunda ja ausalt, polnud just mu parim päev.

Esiteks, ma ei jõua mõelda hetkel, kuidas või mida inglise keeles kirjutada. Teiseks, paljud öelnud, et peaksin eesti keeles siiski kirjutama. Kolmandaks mul niigi oli see mõte pikemat aega. Seega, edaspidi on nii

I've asked about you and they've told me things

but my mind didn't change

I still the feel the same

what's a life with no fun, please don't be so ashamed

I've had mine, you've had yours we both know, we know.

They don't get you like I will

my only wish is I die real

cause that truth hurts, and those lies heal

and you can't sleep thinking that he lies still

so you cry still, tears all in the pillow case,

big girls all get a little taste

pushing me away so I give her space

dealing with a heart that I didn't break.

I'll be there for you, I will care for you

I keep thinking you, just don't know

try to run from that, say you're done with that

I guess after awhile of ignoring, we get tired of being angry and instead, we feel sad. We get reminded once in awhile why we're not talking in the first place, but there comes a point where there's no more anger.. just disappointment.

.. So true. It's funny, that I don't even have words for that. Really, I think that I have never felt so much different feelings at the same time. I'm still in a shock but that's ok. The thing is, I hate when people promise/say something and then they don't put them into practice. It's forgiveable when you do it once or twice, but when it happens almost every week, then I have really big doubts about that person & he's feelings, far from my trust. I am just so disappointed in everything right now, that I don't know, what to do. Like one person said: " You have to do the right decision. And you have to decide, what you feel, not what you want. Just, please, be sure that this decision is right and you have no doubts about it later." I really should listen people more. Decision is done and I'm not sure, if it was the right thing to do. And now I'm trapped, cause I can't change it and hurt somebody more and more. It's just.. I don't know. No matter what I do, it still feels wrong.

Best decision is just to walk away.

This wasn't easy at all.

Kui sul on midagi ülemäära palju käes, ei oska sa seda hinnata.

I have discovered, that Lana Del Rey is so f'cking good so, enjoy !

He went out every night

And baby that's alright

I told you that no matter what you did I'd be by your side

Cause I’m a ride or die

Whether you fail or fly

Well shit at least you tried.

watch it burn, let it die, cause we are finally free, tonight

I just don't have any idea, what to do anymore. I've run out of ideas, how to keep everything together or even how to be happy. Really, I don't want anything to end or smth but that's all I can take for now. Maybe I'm the problem, but things don't happen only thanks to one person. There's always two sides and I think that one of them isn't the same anymore.These things and problems will be back soon & then again and again.. I want to say so many things, so many things have to be done but he won't listen me and the saddest part is, that I have to admit that it won't last forever. I don't sparkle anymore, happiness is somewhere far away and I just sit here, without words. Actually, I have so many words but I've noticed that they don't work. So.. I'm out of everything. I really just want to go somewhere and be there as long as I can, because  things here aren't the way they're supposed to be.