I promise, I'll write soon, but for now, my darling is the best boy a girl can have. Never been happier :)

I'm not afraid of anything, even time,

It'll eke away at everything but we'll be fine. 

Maybe it's better that way ?

 You don’t get burned

Cause nothing gets through

It makes it easier

Easier on you

But that much more difficult for me

To make you see...

Love ain’t fair

So there you are

My love

Your heart’s a mess

You won’t admit to it

It makes no sense

But I’m desperate to connect

And you, you can’t live like this

Your heart’s a mess

You won’t admit to it

It makes no sense

But I’m desperate to connect

And you, you can’t live like this

Love ain’t safe

You won’t get hurt if you stay chaste

So you can wait

But I won't waste my love

Ma lähen ja tulen, a kumb neist domineerib ?

Äkki ongi nii, et kergelt tuleb ja kaob nii ruttu,

Lõppu näha juba alguses, eesmärk hävineb, kaotan valvsuse.

Vahel võiks kõik olla nii, et miski ei muutu kunagi,

et ma lihtsalt lähen ja tulen ja lähen ja tulen ja kõik on ikka veel siin.

♥

Cause I simply have best boyfriend ever.

He pulled you closer said he'll never let go

You couldn't trust him but you never said no

In that moment he made you forgot how it feels when he's gone

a mnje vabsje pohui.

Dreamed of para- para- paradise, every time she closed her eyes.

Sometimes I just think, why do I even exist. I'm so dumb & I fcking hate, that I'm so moody. Have no idea, why do I have to fuck everything up when my life's just perfect. He's perfect. Oh god, I have to change, I really do. I had so nice International Women's Day, my honey made it so perfect. Don't have words. Made some pancakes & he brought me roses. They're really pretty. I'm so pleased with him, I'm so happy with him, everything is just too perfect, I'm so afraid that I will blow it somehow and I don't want to do that. He's everything I've ever wanted and now when I have him, I act like some bitch, who doesn't care. What is wrong with me ????? I'm so sorry for that. Thanks honey for the best day ever !

Tell me baby, will you be here when I wake up

Even with no make up

I don't want to fake it

And you don't gotta doubt a second if I miss you

Everytime I'm with you

I feel naked

If I told you girl

Come and run away with me

Now will you throw it all away for me

I need to know that, need to know that

It's not over

Cause you were the boy

Daddy told you to stay away from me

But you're nothing but a fantasy

I need to know that, need to know that

You'd be strong enough to believe in us

I just don't know what's happening.

Heaven doesn't seem far away.

I think that I may write more often now. Maybe all I'm writing about is him, so don't read or don't be mad. It's just.. Oh I don't know. I'm so amazed and suprised, I really don't know what I feel. It's just everything, it's HIM. He's just perfect, everything in him is so good. I have no fcking idea, what is this x-factor, what makes him so special, but there's something, that even I couldn't understand. Still.. I know, it's in him, somewhere. I love the way he makes me feel, how happy he makes me feel. I love the way he makes me smile, laugh. I love his eyes, his lips, his arms. I could just lie and cuddle all day. I have never felt anything like this. With him I'm happiest girl ever, I just can't help myself. It's the way it is and I sincerely hope that it's the way it all stays. 

Hey I heard you were a wild one.

I am the happiest girl alive, really. I have no idea, how can someone mean so much to me with so little time. All I know - he means so much and even more with every day. I feel like a little girl, it's so good and weird at the same time, I just don't know what to think or do. All I know is that I will do anything for him and for this thing to work, I just can't fck up this time. Oh well, here and now it feels good, that's all I want. I haven't been so happy since... ever..? so whatever, I enjoy every minute of it !

ÖÜÜÖÜÕÕÜÖÄÄÖÜÖÜÜÄÄÄ, I have no words to describe how insanely happy I am. Everything just too goooood. Love my life and these people and oh god, I just love you all !

I live it all the way to the limit !

Sauks. Pole ammu kirjutanud. Võib-olla on see viimane eesti keelne postitus siin, sest kuna ma juba twitteri tegin inglise keelseks, siis mõtlesin, et teen seda ka blogiga. Mul on endal veidi kergem siis kirjutada ka. Ühesõnaga siis.. Reisi saaksin kirjeldada ainult sõnadega hämmastav, super ja lihtsalt no niiiii amazing. Armusin veel rohkem Londonisse. Soovitan kõigile, minge ! Reis tõsiselt meeldis, varsti ilmselt panen siia ka pildid üles, aga mul hetkel pole olnud viitsimist sellega tegeleda. Kõige rohkem meeldisid need massive kingapoed, kus ma oleksin hea meelega hulluks läinud. Ja vaatamisväärsused. Ja no Harrodsi toidupood, võiksin seal elada. Ma ei oska väga hästi oma reisimuljeid avaldada, aga oli tõesti super ja hotell ja spaa veel paremad ! Tahaksin juba tagasi minna.
Üleüldiselt on hetkel kõik nii-nii hea, ma ei tea, mida elult veel tahta. Meest äkki ? Ei tunne isegi igatsust mitte kellegi järgi hetkel, võib-olla on ka põhjuseks see, et mu ümber on niipalju nii häid sõpru, et mul pole isegi aega sellega tegeleda või sellele mõelda. Tahaks vahepeal kõiki lihtsalt kallistada surnuks. Kui mõni sündmus ära jätta, siis on mu elu täiesti perfektne. Arvasin, et peale reisi on koolis kõik .. jah, aga olen kõik järeltööd ja kt'd ära teinud ja hinded on väga head, olen superrahul ! Ja ma tahan koolis käia, isegi kui vahepeal tahaks osad inimesed seal klassis maha lüüa. Viimased päevad on ka nii hästi möödunud, ma olen väga heas tujus olnud ning kevad ja päike liiguvad iga päevaga lähemale, mis tähendab seda, et ma muutun aina rõõmsamaks. Hommikul on nii hea ärgata, kui teed  silmad lahti, vaatad akanast välja ja sealt paistab sulle tõusev päike tuppa. Kõik hommikud muudab see paremaks. Täna on esimene päev, kui ma tunnen ka väsimust, ilmselt sellest, et eile jõudsin kell 4 magama alles. Läks natuke halvasti sellega, but it was worth it ! Loodan megalahedat nv'd veel lahedamate inimestega ja päiksega ja toiduga ja aina soojemate kraadidega. Gotta love life ! muah