Dreamed of para- para- paradise, every time she closed her eyes.

Sometimes I just think, why do I even exist. I'm so dumb & I fcking hate, that I'm so moody. Have no idea, why do I have to fuck everything up when my life's just perfect. He's perfect. Oh god, I have to change, I really do. I had so nice International Women's Day, my honey made it so perfect. Don't have words. Made some pancakes & he brought me roses. They're really pretty. I'm so pleased with him, I'm so happy with him, everything is just too perfect, I'm so afraid that I will blow it somehow and I don't want to do that. He's everything I've ever wanted and now when I have him, I act like some bitch, who doesn't care. What is wrong with me ????? I'm so sorry for that. Thanks honey for the best day ever !