some things we don’t talk about, 

rather do without, 

just hold a smile. 

falling in and out of love, 

ashamed and proud of, 

together all the while. 

you can never say never, 

while we don’t know it, 

time and time again. 

younger now than we were before. 

don’t let me go

picture, 

you’re the queen of everything, 

far as the eye can see, 

under your command. 

i will be your guardian, 

when all is crumbling, 

steady your hand. 

we’re falling apart, 

and coming together again and again. 

we’re growing apart, 

but we pull in together, 

pulling together, together again

I would stop time to stay with you, I would stop time so we don't move, I would stop time to keep you.

Ma ei tea, see tunne.. Mul pole sõnu selle kirjeldamiseks. Kui sa terve nädala oled eemal inimesest, keda sa mitu kuud järjest põhimõtteliselt iga päev näed, siis see igatsus on tappev. Lõppude lõpuks ma harjusin ära ja arvasin siiralt, et ongi tuim olek kuid mida aeg edasi, mida vähemaks jäi neid minuteid ja meetreid meie vahel, seda rohkem hakkasin ma üle keha värisema ning mu süda taguma. See aeg tundus nii lõpmata pikk, ning see hetk kui ma teda nägin, terve mu sisikond tõmbus õnnest krampi ja põlved läksid nõrgaks. Hämmastav, kuidas keegi saab üleüldse nii mõjuda. Kuidas on võimalik, et see tühine nädal tundus just kui terve igavik ? Ilmselt täna õhtul sain oma elu kõige parema kallistuse, ma ausalt ei tahtnud enam teda kunagi lahti lasta. Päris kohutav on tegelikult elada teadmisega, et oled kellestki niivõrd sõltuv. Armastan sind tibu !

Hey girl, is he everything you wanted in a man?
You know I gave you the world
You had me in the palm of your hand
So why your love went away
I just can't seem to understand
Thought it was me and you babe
Me and you until the end
But I guess I was wrong


Don't want to think about it
Don't want to talk about it
I'm just so sick about it
Can't believe it's ending this way
Just so confused about it
Feeling the blues about it
I just can't do without ya
Tell me is this fair?


Is this the way it's really going down?
Is this how we say goodbye?
Should've known better when you came around
That you were gonna make me cry
It's breaking my heart to watch you run around
'Cause I know that you're living a lie
That's okay baby 'cause in time you will find..
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around

Now I know that I’m not

All that you got

I guess that I, I just thought

Maybe we could find new ways to fall apart

Samm sammu haaval hävitab see minus kõike. Seest välja, õnn muutub õnnetuseks ning ainus, mis selle vastu aitab on tegu, mida ma teha ei suuda.

Sweet love, sweet love

Trapped in your love

I’ve opened up, unsure I can trust

My heart and I were buried in dust

Free me, free us

You’re all I need when I’m holding you tight

If you walk away I will suffer tonight

I found a man I can trust

And boy, I believe in us

I am terrified to love for the first time

Can you see that I’m bound in chains?

I’ve finally found my way

I am bound to you

So much, so young, I’ve faced on my own

Walls I built up became my home

I’m strong and I’m sure there’s a fire in us

Sweet love, so pure

I catch my breath with just one beating heart

And I embrace myself, please don’t tear this apart

A hundred hearts would be too few to carry all my love for you.

Kuidas teha midagi, mida sa teha ei taha ? Kuidas otsustada midagi, millele sa tegelikult vastust saada ei soovi ? Kuidas see kõik õigeks muuta ? Ma ei saa aru, kuidas alati leian ma ennast millegi vahel olevat ning ei suuda järjekordselt otsustada mida teha. Halvim ongi see, et tahaks loobuda kuid midagi nii suurt hoiab seda kõike koos, et ma lihtsalt ei suuda. Miks vastuseid nii raske leida on ? Ma ju tahan seda aga miks see kõik peab nii keeruline olema ? Miks õnnelikuks olemise nimel peab nii meeletult vaeva nägema ? Nii palju on küsimusi aga vastuseid pole.

Is this love?

When the sun goes down

but this love, it’s just not enough for me

It’s just not enough for me

violently I’ve come around

An extension of hope, this could be misleading

Could you write it down now

'cause I can’t speak

And it cuts like a knife in the cracks that I can’t read

and you’re pulling me down, so I can’t breathe

It’s a situation, sometimes we all want out

Vicious regulations, from time to time we need some help

And all of a sudden ..it just stops and all fades away